Heavenly Father I praise You for helping me these last five years. I praise You for walking beside me and listening to me as I process, grieve, and try to live with the loss of my son Philip. I praise You for the opportunity this past weekend to go with the family to the grave site and to show my grandchildren all of the family that has left this earth for heaven. Today, Help me take command of my morning and shake all the evil from it.
Holy Spirit I praise You for the son You allowed me to share life with for 21 years. For his miracle birth, for fighting so hard through asthma, and for becoming a strong young man with so much potential. I praise You for allowing me to see him grow, laugh, love, and enjoy life. I praise You for how diverse he was from his sister and brother and that he made his way in life. The memories of how he taught many how to love, laugh, and just thoroughly love life. I ask that You will guide me and help me to move forward in life with the hope of seeing him again in heaven. Help me to be a little like him and enjoy people. Help me during the dark
times, the nightmares, and the loneliness of him being gone and all that could have been. Help me to seek shelter in Your arms and to understand I will never really understand. Guide my footsteps, what I say, how I live, and how I support my family. Happy Birthday today Philip, I am sorry that I did not help you make it past 21.
You, O Lord, are my shepherd; I shall not want. You make me lie down in green pastures; You lead me beside still waters and You restore my soul; You lead me in paths of righteousness for Your name’s sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; You anoint my head with oil; my cup runs over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in Your house forever. Amen. [Psalm 23]