I bow before You at the altar at the core of who I am, laying my life bare. I am fully aware of my successes, my failures, my pain, my hope, my desires, my love, and my struggles—knowing You see all of me and understand me more deeply than I know myself. Prayer is often my lifeline, helping me make it one more day, giving me the desire to see the gift of a smile, a sunset, and any wonders You place before my eyes. I often pray scripture to claim the essence of the wisdom You inspired in those who wrote what we call the Bible. I feel inadequate expressing my heart on my own.
Right now, I feel that my ministry is to teach others to pray and to know You more personally. I am in awe of how my life has continued to change. I am still amazed that You allowed me to write books, to speak to others through various media, and to share daily prayers with anyone who visits my website. Even after losing Philip, I am grateful for the strength to face each day. I marvel at the job You provided that restored my desire to work and make a difference for others. You opened doors that had been closed for so long, allowing me to regain the trust of those who once doubted me. I praise You for giving me a church where I feel I belong and can continue to grow.
I pray because I am imperfect. I pray to open all that needs change. I find peace in talking to You amidst a chaotic world. Your Word comforts me and assures me that my life is not wasted or accidental—I am not a random collection of atoms, but a creation with a purpose. This hope keeps me moving forward. I can only imagine the joy of seeing You when I finally reach eternity. Yes, I look forward to reuniting with Philip, with family, and with the babies we lost along the way, but to see You will make all this worth it.
I cannot fathom the sacrifice that brought Christ to earth and to the cross. The thought of sacrificing my son for the sake of others is beyond me. I often feel unworthy of salvation, but that is the beauty of this gift—I didn’t earn it; it was given for me to accept. I try hard, with my finite mind, to understand a gift so boundless. I do not know what lies ahead, but I pray that those I love may know You and reach eternity too.
Thank You, God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit—all in one encompassing God beyond my understanding. Thank You for the love, the promise, the plan, the promptings, and the guidance. May my words and actions always honor You. Amen.